Monday, August 25, 2008

Ch Ch Ch Change...

I made a decision to transfer schools this year. I've been at my previous school for almost ten years, but it became an unhealthy place for me professionally. Last spring, I interviewed and got the job. I shared the news with my colleagues and all was good. The reality has set in and it's harder than I thought it'd be.

Going back to work in August has always been very social for me. Catching up with old friends and checking in with each other. Commiserating, giggling, and hugging were integral parts of back to school. This year it's different. No one (practically) knows me. Being middle school, it's a different environment than the touchy-feely elementary teachers....I feel isolated. No one invites me to lunch. I've eaten alone three times in five days.

Of course, being single compounds this feeling of lonliness. When I get home, it's me and my dog. It won't always be like this. I know. It's hard. I've NEVER been a woman who's afraid to be alone. I understand that feeling for the first time.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Last Day of Freedom...kinda

Tomorrow, it's official. I begin my job as a sixth grade teacher. Butterflies have taken over my stomach and my throat and my head....excitement, nerves, I feel alive. It's what I wanted. I have to keep reminding myself of that. Yesterday, it occurred to me (for the first time since I took my new job) that I won't see my friends everyday. Being single, work is a social place for me. YIKES! It's the same feeling I had on the first day of fourth grade, when I was beginning a new school. "Will anyone like me?" I can't believe at 36, I still wonder about that. Anyway, I decided to procrastinate and forget about what's ahead. Happy Chyck Wonders challenged with this One Word Answer. Here goes:

Simply answer each prompt with only one word.

Some claim that one word is harder than it looks, but if I can limit my answers, anyone can do this!

1. Where is your cell phone? downstairs
2. Where is your significant other? ?
3. Your hair color? black
4. Your mother? cute
5. Your father? positive
6. Your favorite thing? journal
8. Your dream/goal? content-ness
9. The room you’re in? bed
10. Your hobby? writing
11. Your fear? birds
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? happy
13. Where were you last night? out
14. What you’re not? liar
15. One of your wish-list items?
16. Where you grew up? Springfield
17. The last thing you did? laundry
18. What are you wearing? pajamas
19. Your TV? new
20. Your pet? Leo
21. Your computer? addicted
22. Your mood? alive
23. Missing someone? Dad
24. Your car? sporty
25. Something you’re not wearing? shoes
26. Favorite store? book
27. Your summer? perfect
28. Love someone? Zoe
29. Your favorite color? yellow
30. When is the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? tonight
32. Who do you want to tag? anyone

Yes! Anyone! If you are still enjoying your summer, take the time to waste a little time!



Musings and thoughts...