(Sugarland)
Just got home from another amazing deck party at C's. I love fun nights out meeting new people. Tonight was a good night...a really good night. The group was small, intimate would be an appropriate description. The best part was we were from different parts of her life. Her brother, sister-in-law, and nephew…family; her roommate, a couple of teacher friends from her former school, some church friends, a high school friend from Michigan, and a neighbor (oh, and me). I’d only met two or three of these people at the last party, so I was nervous going in.
There’s one specific thing I’d like to talk about here…the unexpected. Driving the hour to get to her deck party, I was ruminating the possibility of meeting someone, as I often do when I am in a situation where I’m able to meet new people. Tears formed as I lamented the “alone-ness” of my romantic life. I felt helpless and hopeless, but I remembered a line from a book I bought today about how I’m not in control of this part of my life, God is.
When I arrived, there were three other guests (all women), so I immediately dismissed the idea of meeting anyone. People trickled in…a neighbor was grilling wings to serve. This neighbor, a former marine, seemed very nice. I said, “ You’re the wing man.” He laughed.
There were only 8 or 9 people at the party, so we were all chatting together. Eventually, conversations split and we talked about accidents we had as kids, cooking, and other things. He makes very corny jokes…but if you know me, you know what I do, I laugh. I was happy. I felt good. I felt hope.
The story does not end with…and they lived happily ever after, but it does have a happy ending. This story isn’t even really about the neighbor (even though he was sweet, funny, attractive, could talk to anyone easily, and seemed to enjoy my company). No it’s not about him. It’s about me. I enjoyed my time with him. I felt “worthy” of him and his attention. Now, he has a girlfriend and lives about an hour away, BUT tonight God showed me that there is hope. Thank you!
1 comments:
HOLY COW I never saw this until now!! I just decided to drop in on your blog, and was amazed to see that you'd posted a few times and I didn't know! So funny to hear your thoughts about driving to the party...and realize they are the SAME THOUGHTS I always have...and when you arrive, and there doesn't seem to be anyone to meet, you dismiss the thought, and get a little bummed, and gradually relax, and have a great time. How funny...we are so alike. I'm so glad you had a nice time. I'm going to see you in about an hour and a half, so I'm sure we'll chat about this among a thousand other things...so, see you soon and I LOVE YOU!!
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