Wednesday, April 23, 2008


Ugh! I don't know where to start...let me warn any possible readers that this will be some serious verbal diarrhea...I am sitting alone in my classroom and it's hot and sweaty and I am MISERABLE. I feel like I don't want anyone around me...I feel like I am completely's like a panic attack. Dad's gone. Every one's moving on with life...right now I am FROZEN. If I could run out of this building right now I would. I just want to escape. People are annoying me. Just going about their daily business and I want to SCREAM look at me!!! I Hate this!!! (I'm not sure exactly what this is.) I am disappointed because colleagues are getting new jobs and interviews and I WANT TO LEAVE. This became crystal clear to me today.

I've outgrown this.

Well...eight minutes until the kids are back. Luckily I still like all of them!!!

Breathe...breathe....(just reminding myself)

Friday, April 18, 2008

National Poetry Month

This week we've been writing poetry in class to celebrate National Poetry Month. I teach two classes and all year one of these classes has challenged me every step of the way. Yesterday I taught a lesson to reluctant poetry writers. WOW! They wrote poetry. It was one of those of those days...

Our Thursdays end with the whole school writing for fifteen minutes of writing. In those fifteen minutes, I wrote a poem inspired by these students. I'll post it tomorrow!

One more day til the weekend...enjoy Friday.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

A New Me's been such a long time since I've posted here. Life gets so busy. So many people and responsibilities pulling me in every imaginable way. It's only 8:30 am and today I've made a decision. A decision to change my body, my nutrition, and my exercise...for so long I've hidden behind the pounds. It's safer. No one will look at me because of all of the extra padding. Safer. My heart hurts so much from my loss this year, that I needed to protect it. Every day I get stronger and want to be myself again. I'm tired of hiding. My goals include being kind to myself, being patient, moving more, and eating less. One day at a time, I will change my life...

Musings and thoughts...