Saturday, September 6, 2008!

Ugh! Am I the only one who feels like this? I want to be happy. There have been so many changes in my life lately.Exciting changes, scary, you know? I work hard to make good choices to make me happy. Why does it seem like everything is backfiring? I feel alone, and today I feel like I'm a failure. Intellectually I know it's not true, but it's how I feel. My bedroom is filling up with water, as I write this blog. It won't be addressed until Monday. Work is a lonely place. I feel like I do not belong, a lot of the time. Right now, I don't feel good, either. When will things improve? I'm looking forward to life changing for the better.

Out of Control

Rain....Hanna...Drip, drip, drip,, pouring into my bedroom. I hate feeling out of control. The rain is literally pouring into my bedroom. There is NOTHING I can do about it. All I wanted to do today was to have a quiet rainy day, reading and watching Tivo. Instead I'm freaking out because my bedroom is turning into a lake. The furniture is about to get soaked. There is NOTHING I can do about it.

Breathe. Relax. The builder will fix it on Monday. I will make sure. Why ruin any more of my weekend? OK. I've decided to let go. (OK, I'm trying.) Hope you are staying out of the rain.

Musings and thoughts...